Let me first start by saying this - I don't fucking believe that there are 405 people on this planet who actually think it is worth their while to spend their precious time viewing or reading my blog. Haha!! that is some unreal shit. Anyhow, moving on, a lot has happened ever since I made the last post here. I don't know if it is safe to say this but I some how tend to believe that I have evolved in some weird way. Alright, just to get every one reading this up to speed, I am completely and insanely in love with this amazing girl whom I have been with for the last 9 months now. I hope the number's correct or else she might just kill me. Also, let me just say this before I vomit my brains out on this white board that as I write this post, I have nothing better to do and this decision is due to the lack of a better idea, due to the absence of better things to do in a petite town like Mirzapur at 3:30 a.m. in the morning. Not to forget the fact that sleep eludes me in every possible manner which is also one of the factors contributing to the decision of writing this blog and yes!! I am on my second single malt of Lismore as I write this lovely post. That just made me realize the length of time it took to finish this bottle as I poured the last few drops of this mega malt into my tiny glass and mixed it with water. This bottle was given to my Dad by my Mom's younger brother about a year back or probably more and so it has taken its fair share of time to wind up in the store room as empty. As each day passes by I am having to realize what a humongous battle it is that I am fighting on a daily basis with sleep. I suppose I could attribute the lack of it to my routine to some extent but I don't really think it is merely a routine change that is causing all of this. This problem is a long standing battle that I get to indulge in every night with myself since it is this bloody mind of mine that I have trouble controlling or cannot possibly refrain from thinking constantly. I fail to understand why something like this happens, at the same time I some where down the line pride myself about it making it look like an act of god's generosity.
Coming to the point now, like I said, a lot has changed ever since my last post here. For starters, I gathered the strength to let go the woman I so fondly wrote about and have since allowed myself to discover love of a completely distinct nature. This recent discovery is quite a remarkable one seeing as how this girl I have fallen for had her sights set on me ever since she walked into my office i.e. Six Degrees. She would sit there silently and expect me to make conversation every time. The profoundness of it just goes to another level as all of this is being told to me just weeks after I have starting dating this girl. The list of things that I have to share here are just so many that at times I have trouble aligning my thoughts in the right order.Okay, let's give this a shot, what according to me seems to be the most astonishing aspect of this relationship is the magnitude of change that I have undergone ever since she stepped into my life. I got drunk and made the reckless decision of walking up to her not having the slightest of clue if or not I would actually want to kiss this girl and then doing the exact same thing ironically at her farewell party. This incident has made me have mixed sentiments about the kind of confidence alcohol bestows upon you. I don't know how much of that confidence can be seen as false and how much of it as true but, the point is it helps you bloody get things going which it did in all its certainty. In fact, it was the 8th of August last year when this incident happened and it is truly hard to come to terms with the fact that it is going to be year now since it all started. Unreal as it may seem, there have been quite a lot of bumps going down this road. Amazingly, I volunteered like a six year old for a fun school project on this one despite being told by her how damaged and broken and god knows what not she was and how I would get to experience, witness and intimately feel every side of her to which I being the headstrong freak that I am responded why of course I will endure all of this and promised her that I will not be the kind of demented and deformed assholes she previously fell for.
There is just so much to say here and every part of me as I write this wishes to continue writing but, as I said, a lot has changed ever since I made my last post and one of those things being the fact that I am back in Mirzapur and have a business engagement tomorrow for which I need to be up by 9 not to forget the fact that I need to wake her up by 8 since she has office. So all of this and more in my next and just a finishing note to the viewers of this blog - thank you so much of actually considering these posts worthy of your time and investing it in viewing/reading them. I am deeply indebted to each one of you for having spent whatever fraction of time it is that you spent visiting this frivolous blog of mine.
Cheers!! and take care every one. Goodnight.
Coming to the point now, like I said, a lot has changed ever since my last post here. For starters, I gathered the strength to let go the woman I so fondly wrote about and have since allowed myself to discover love of a completely distinct nature. This recent discovery is quite a remarkable one seeing as how this girl I have fallen for had her sights set on me ever since she walked into my office i.e. Six Degrees. She would sit there silently and expect me to make conversation every time. The profoundness of it just goes to another level as all of this is being told to me just weeks after I have starting dating this girl. The list of things that I have to share here are just so many that at times I have trouble aligning my thoughts in the right order.Okay, let's give this a shot, what according to me seems to be the most astonishing aspect of this relationship is the magnitude of change that I have undergone ever since she stepped into my life. I got drunk and made the reckless decision of walking up to her not having the slightest of clue if or not I would actually want to kiss this girl and then doing the exact same thing ironically at her farewell party. This incident has made me have mixed sentiments about the kind of confidence alcohol bestows upon you. I don't know how much of that confidence can be seen as false and how much of it as true but, the point is it helps you bloody get things going which it did in all its certainty. In fact, it was the 8th of August last year when this incident happened and it is truly hard to come to terms with the fact that it is going to be year now since it all started. Unreal as it may seem, there have been quite a lot of bumps going down this road. Amazingly, I volunteered like a six year old for a fun school project on this one despite being told by her how damaged and broken and god knows what not she was and how I would get to experience, witness and intimately feel every side of her to which I being the headstrong freak that I am responded why of course I will endure all of this and promised her that I will not be the kind of demented and deformed assholes she previously fell for.
There is just so much to say here and every part of me as I write this wishes to continue writing but, as I said, a lot has changed ever since I made my last post and one of those things being the fact that I am back in Mirzapur and have a business engagement tomorrow for which I need to be up by 9 not to forget the fact that I need to wake her up by 8 since she has office. So all of this and more in my next and just a finishing note to the viewers of this blog - thank you so much of actually considering these posts worthy of your time and investing it in viewing/reading them. I am deeply indebted to each one of you for having spent whatever fraction of time it is that you spent visiting this frivolous blog of mine.
Cheers!! and take care every one. Goodnight.
